DANCING FOOL
I will wait for you here
I am the flower you are the flame
Burned to the ground and you are to blame
But is it really worth it if it’s beauty without pain
So if you’re spreading fire, I’ll be the same
I will wait for you here
One quarter passion one quarter meticulous plans
In the truth the other half’s the whims of a wild working man
Father I have learned that most roads are paved with stone
So if I’m spreading fire, you be the wind that blows me home
I will wait for you here
Mother,
I’ve no love for this place
But if I live for love
Than I’ll have to stay
And meet my demons face to face
Mother
I’ve no love for this place
But if I live for love
Then I’ll have to stay
And learn to live in grace
You be the craftsman I’ll be the tool
You be the stage, I’ll be a dancing fool
I will wait for you here
I will wait for you here
I will wait for you here
DEVIL’S WALTZ
Come on my girl take hands with me
And we’ll waltz around that sycamore tree
And we’ll sing an old song that we heard on the wind
In hopes of escaping the devil’s worst sin
And it goes…
Lie die die I don’t feel any pain
When we roll in the mud and we play in the rain
My heart it bleeds through on my shirt leaves a stain
Numbed by the tune of our lovers’ refrain
You’ll call me wisdom and I’ll call you boy
We’ll represent life, one suffering one joy
We’ll dance round the edges of placing the fault
We’ll twirl the fine line of the devil’s waltz
Lie die die I don’t feel any pain
When we roll in the mud and we play in the rain
My heart it bleeds through on my shirt leaves a stain
Numbed by the tune of our lovers’ refrain
I’ll kiss you goodbye and I’ll lace up my boots
The taste of your skin is the sweetest of fruits
Then I marched into battle and all that I felt
Was the kiss of the bullet that sent me to hell
I lifted your body and screamed at the gods
Have of my soul is what our love cost
And then laced up your boots and climbed down to save
That man soul and body from hades sweet grave
And it goes
Lie die die I don’t feel any pain
When we roll in the mud and we play in the rain
My heart it bleeds through on my shirt leaves a stain
Numbed by the tune of our lovers’ refrain
Lie die die I don’t feel any pain
When we roll in the mud and we play in the rain
My heart it bleeds through on my shirt leaves a stain
Numbed by the tune of our lovers’ refrain
You’ll watch me put on that pretty black dress
And I’ll dress to match you in Lucifer’s vest
That we stole from him on that cold winter’s eve
We’re dressed in the moonlight of lovers and thieves
EASTBOUND
Bring me that horizon. Let me hear the call of Sirens. I won’t go to them,
For I have better things in mind with the sea in front, the sea behind,
And the wild, wild, wild, wind whipping on my shoulders.
In the sea we have no name. We are brothers, we’re the same,
but we hear differently.
Both strong and in our youth, the exception is I’ve heard the truth,
and all I want is you to hear it, too.
Do you know what you’re looking for? Do you know what you’re searching for?
We’ve left behind the shore and come knocking on the sea’s front door
in hopes that she will take us where she’s going.
Will she take us to the East? Is that where we’ll find the feast? Either way
we will follow where she’s flowing.
We’re proving what we know--that we can face the sea and return home,
when in our heads just screaming,
“We are not alone, we are not alone, we are not alone!”
Do you know what you're looking for? Do you know what you’re searching for?
I can see what’s in your mind. Look ahead. Let go of what’s behind, or that storm will take you over the side.
And I’ll reach down and pull you out, even though we’re both sure to drown.
Maybe overboard is just a different route.
Down down we go to the bottom, sinking deeper, darker, down we go. Sirens’ songs, the light is gone, this life is long, and
I’ll do you wrong, and all the things you thought below . . .
You’re not alone, you're not alone.
Do you know what you're looking for? Do you know what you're searching for?
Do you know what you're looking for? Do you know what you're searching for?
Do you see what a life could be if you could just be free like me?
And I have seen what you're looking for, and I have seen what you're searching for.
Now we must return, to see if we’ve really learned, or if the sun just left us burned.
For the sea it treats us well, but if we learn to love ourselves,
We can learn to love you.
We can learn to love you.
The Haunting
We keep repeating the same words
In heightened speech, with cutting verbs
Don’t you know by now, I speak and you will learn
If I don’t hear, your words won’t hurt
Never put up any fight
Except when it’s in my own mind
Like a smothered storm my thoughts they go unknown
Patch the boat, mind the water, make it home
But I drink you in, spit you out
Build you up tear you down
It’s just the back and forth to let you know
Seasons change so things may die then grow
Things must change
Say my name
I’m so scared I’m the one that is to blame
Little Lion let me be
Little liar is it me?
Lying in bed where words like “fine..”
Roll out like steam
But lies will rot the heart and thoughts
And never shield me like I think
But I drink you in, spit you out
Build you up tear you down
Pull you close, and push you out
Someday we’ll learn to shut our mouths
It’s just the back and forth to let you know
Seasons change so things may die then grow
Things must change
Say my name
I’m so scared that I’m the one that is to blame
Over and over and over it goes
With the wine playing tricks and the room spinning slow
I hope that you enjoy the music I chose,
The candles I lit, they’re just part of the show
And I’m trying to focus and show you I notice
Your eyes perfectly match the dress that you’ve chosen
I’m standing here frozen--missed out on the moment
Maybe I should just give it up
But it’s the love that keeps the haunting in my bones
The ghost that hunts me daily, and won’t leave me alone
And if you’re saying that you love me--say it slow
And I’ll need you to show me
I need you to show me
I need you to show me
I need you to show me
I need you to show me
I need you to show me
I need you to show me
I need you to show cuz
It’s just the back and forth to let you know
Seasons change so things may die then grow
Things must change
Say my name
Now I know I’m the one that is to blame
Backward Glance
Chorus after chorus I’ve been sucking down these dregs of this
Dark roast coffee of bitterness
If you paid with your own money then you must drink it
Even if you’re full and the flavor is piss
But a porcelain Jesus came and stole all my words
He called it a blessing by lifting off that burden
I’m no prophet who speaks bread from steam
I’m just some judge in this american scheme
I’ve been hearing your voice as I fall asleep
Playing mom and dad in my make-believe
Don’t matter if these things are only in my dreams
For I’d go and make these dreams come true
Because without a backward glance I’d go and make a family out of you
I was born a baby crying in a sterilized room
But I will go quiet in my white washed tomb
Maybe I was crying because I already knew
That I’d lose my infant heart on some quest to find the truth
Oberst mirrors my beating heart and Avett speaks my mind
Thile brings my doubts to light, Jon Foreman gives me signs
And good old Sondre Lerche wrote the song “To Be Surprised”
Little did he know he wrote that song about my life
As a poet I will join them I will do my very best
To only speak the truth when I send it to the press
The thing about my truth is that it’s just a young man’s guess
And the voices in my head are saying just give it a rest
But I’ve been hearing your voice as I fall asleep
Playing mom and dad in my make-believe
Don’t matter if these things are only in my dreams
For i’d go and make these dreams come true
Because without a backward glance I’d go and make a family out of you
Bright Things
Say what you want, I will kiss you in the light of the dawning morn’
And I’ll hold you till it’s over and kiss the broken pieces that have been torn
We put off the sleeping for the music and the drinking—for the singing.
It was a tickle, a whisper, a thing that I felt in my chest. On further inspection I detected the soul I love the best. Your heart beating in me was the birth of our first kiss I confess
Oh my girl when I saw your face
And you cried for the love of a broken boy—then I knew grace.
I’ve been covered in riches and blessed by all wisdom. November’s flame
I’ve been crying my nights away from joy knowing you feel the same
For you plunged in to save me and pulled me out by my soul. And when I resurfaced I found that I’d been made whole. And since-- I’ve been laughing for love I cannot control.
All of the world and all of the love that I’ve seen-- your hope and your beauty--are all the bright things to me.
Buried Side By Side
The day that I stop loving you I’ll smoke an Aging Room
And I’ll dance all night and howl at the moon
Then I’ll collapse in a heap, overcome by grief
Because my beating heart has left my chest for good
My prayer for the longest time is death would find me soon
And I know you pray the same you always do
I cannot say goodbye, but I live a lie
Can’t help hoping we’ll be buried side by side
I read a poem today and my thoughts which were a washcloth
wrung out to raggedness had no room
For the solid building blocks of fact this poem was short and glorious
and it made oh it made me cry
This poem it changes me and that’s why I call it art
and hold this precious thing inside my pocket
My prayer for the longest time is death would find me soon
And I know you pray the same you always do
I cannot say goodbye, but I live a lie
Can’t help hoping we’ll be buried side by side
Sitting on your floor all my excuses used up for these uninvited visits to your kitchen
In my head just clicking while enjoying this sweet sipping
Words stolen from those transcripts of those memories
My prayer for the longest time is death would find me soon
And I know you pray the same you always do
I cannot say goodbye, but I live a lie
Can’t help hoping we’ll be buried side by side
I used to worry--am I satisfied
Will I find you in my pictures in the future
Now I don’t worry about anything but one
Girl all I really worry about is you
All I really worry about is you
All I really worry about is you
All I really worry about is you
My prayer for the longest time is death would find me soon
And I know you pray the same you always do
I cannot say goodbye, but I live a lie
Can’t help hoping we’ll be buried side by side
Hole in the Roof
Tell me your worries your fears and your cares
Tell me your hopes your loves your despairs
For I’m just a boy who knows what you mean
I get what you’re saying, I see what you see
And I have been fixing a hole in the roof
Where the bats fly in daily and the rain comes through
I’ll tell you mine babe if you tell me yours
The sky may turn blue, but when it rains, it pours
The younger the sadder but the bigger the grin
You don’t know me, you just know where I’ve been
And I have been fixing a hole in the roof
Where the bats fly in daily and the rain comes through
The birds are singing her love’s voice is ringing
And I don’t know what to do
The birds are singing and her love’s voice is ringing
And I don’t know what to do
I could fix up this roof but then the sun won’t shine through
There will be no more blue skies for me and for you
I have been fixing that hole in the roof
Where the bats fly in daily and the rain comes through
The younger the sadder but the bigger the grin
You don’t know me, you just know where I’ve been
I Won’t
Please don’t let me go
I won’t let you go
Then you’ve got to let it show
I will try and show you/that
All these places in between those wild words and daring dreams
Are wrapped up in that tale of you and me
Your head full of brains and your shoes full of feet
You’re too smart to go down any not-too-good streets
So tell me no lies because I’ve heard that before
Show me some proof pull me out that old door
This find quilt of love that we’ve so tightly sewn
It ain’t necessary boy you’re fine on your own
I know that I’m fine I just want you here with me
You’re so sweet sunny swell, gee, you’re so dang nifty--SO
Please don’t let me go
I won’t let you go
Then you’ve got to let it show
I will try and show you/that
All these places in between those wild words and daring dreams
Are wrapped up in that tale of you and me
I know that I’m fine when you leave me alone
It’s just that you’re my heaven my heart and my home
You don’t love me because you need to you just do because you do
Loving ain’t a remedy it’s a way to help you through
Remember our first summer? Our truest truest true
The sky atop our happy heads was the brightest bluest blue
I loved you and you fell for me we were lonely that’s a fact
But If loneliness was the only cause this just ain’t gonna last
(Don’t say that!)
Please don’t let me go
I won’t let you go
Then you’ve got to let it show
I will try and show you/that
All these places in between those wild words and daring dreams
Are wrapped up in that tale of you and me
I’ve been up all night and down all day
Too tired from meeting you every which way
I just want to know, just need to be shown
There’s someone to hold me, I ain’t on my own
I’ve tried to start thinking of teachings and preaching
Of wizened old men while my body is shrieking and moaning dismay
I just feel so lost when I know you’re away
Just want to know someone who shows me I shouldn’t just wait, and drink, and drive, and hide, and scream, and swear and swindle a little and swindle a lot
Need someone to show me I’m more than I’m not
Rocks below heaven alive it’s time to dive I’m losing my mind
My mind has been chasing my stomach around
Up to my throat and way down to the ground
If love makes such madmen out of strong kings
What chance do I stand in the wake of such things?
Please don’t let me go
I won’t let you go
Then you’ve got to let it show
I will try and show you/that
All these places in between those wild words and daring dreams
Are wrapped up in that tale of you and me
Please don’t let me go
I won’t let you go
Then you’ve got to let it show
I will try and show you/that
All these places in between those wild words and daring dreams
Are wrapped up in that tale of you and me
Like Kings
I’ll trade all of my money for one last pack of strings
And if you promise to go with me then we’ll take the world like kings
But we won’t go where the wind blows
No we won’t go where the wind blows
We’ll only go the places we’re shown
And let the light let us not be alone
I’ll trade away my right hand to keep yours inside my left
To hear you whisper softly feel your head against my chest
In my pocket I’ve been hiding a ring
And trying to express you in these foolish melodies
I’ll love and will pull you up and out when you sink
It’s the cost of the joy that you bring to me
I’ll trade all of my money for one baby girl
I’ll do my best to show her all the dirt that’s in the world
The world needs the dirt to grow
Those flowers, they can’t bloom in the snow
She’ll raise up the world with the beauty she’s shown
So I’ll teach my baby girl all I know
I’ll trade all of my money for one precious boy
I’ll do my best to raise him in the lust and in the world
I hope he is sweeter than me
I hope that he’s braver than me
I hope that he takes after you
And lets his heart be the lead of his feet
Remember all the times that you kissed me on the cheek
And said sometimes we’re in the valley, sometimes we’re at that peak
I’ll love you as long as you continue to seek
What little good your small hands can bring
I know that you’re sweeter than me
I know that you’re braver than me
I keep hoping I can take after you
And let my heart be the lead of my feet
I’ll trade all of my money for one last pack of strings
And if you promise to go with me then we’ll take the world like kings
Out in the Breeze
Well I stay out in the breeze
For it’s the only thing for me
To see if blood’s still flowing through my veins
I’ve been spending time on knee
Confessing to some priest
To see if there’s some love I can attain
Now I know long ago I thought I lost my soul
Lost it to those demons that I always thought were true
Now I know my heart and soul were really lost in you
I’m a hypocrite a pessimist
My lustful eyes are so unfit
If your beauty was a liquor i’d keep drinking
I’m keep running across bridges you look away and I blow kisses
I keep dancing just to keep my brain from thinking
Now I know long ago I thought I lost my soul
Lost it to those demons that I always thought were true
Now I know my heart and soul were really lost in you
I felt her breathe and close her eyes
Hair falling on her face
She snatched a glance and then began to say
One day i’ll know everything there is to know about you
And that will be the best of days
That will be the best of days
Now I know long ago I thought I lost my soul
Lost it to those demons that I always thought were true
Now I know my heart and soul were really lost in you
Over the River
Cold falls quickly to spring
Spring is the season of change
I will wait for you
I will wait for you
Summer slips slowly to fall
South’s where the birds are all called
I will wait for you
I will wait for you
And my voice sings
out for the one who knows what my heart is about
Kisses on covered bridge
Bridges fall to darkened streams
Streams sail kisses away
Where they go they don’t say
I’ll sit as you tussle my hair
You’re here so I breathe in sweet air
Till death do us part
Till death do us part
And my voice sings out
For the one who knows what my heart is about
Hold to my fingertips
Press them soft to your lips
I will love you today
Till your curls they turn gray
For your eyes stay the same
And my voice sings out
For the one who knows what my heart is about
Prodigal
Wrapped up in blankets hiding from my own tears
Believing through blindness that I’ll escape those dear fears
If only my hunger was for righteousness sweet
And only my mind didn’t stain my own feet
How long how long were you thinking you could hide
The fig tree is rotting now by your shame birthed by pride
I’ve been going to bed in all the old places
Dreaming of demons with familiar faces
They look just like loved ones but with tighter embraces
They say we’ve seen your heart and it’s callous it’s heinous
Your blood and your body fill me with guilt
And fill me with purity there my salvation is built
Each sin that I’ve hidden strikes a spear in your side
But I cannot find your saving face for you blood is in my eyes
I’ve been going to bed in all the old places
Dreaming of demons with familiar faces
They look just like loved ones but with tighter embraces
They say we’ve seen your heart and it’s callous it’s heinous
Can you hear
Can you hear
Can you hear
Can your hear
Hush now my child go off to sleep
When will you find that your soul I will keep
Can you hear
Can you hear
Can you hear
Can you hear
Return now my child all is not lost for comes a table but then comes the cross
Your suffering is much and the sun she shines bright
But when she finally goes to rest you’ll be at my right side
I’ve been going to bed in all the old places
Dreaming of demons with familiar faces
They look just like loved ones but with tighter embraces
They say we’ve seen your heart and it’s callous it’s heinous
The sky may be tempting be we are your roots
If you sever us and bleed out then what will that prove
Because you can cry out and scream out and bleed out and pray
But what if God don’t come down, what if you can’t be saved
So I stuck out my neck to see if they’d follow through
And I heard a small voice that was wrapped up in truth it said
If your heart is still beating then you are my son
I’ve prepared a feast while you’ve been on the run
Your insults forgotten they’re dead and they’re gone
So you’re free to come home back to where you belong
Robin’s Cup
I came out of the woods to know
That a queen may be a queen of all things, but she may love an ass even so
I came out of the woods to find
That this silly love between her, him, and me, it’s stupid it’s a wreck, it’s divine
So fall with me, and hold tight to my hand
Your lips teach much more than my mind can understand
I came out of the woods to make amends
These shadows that seemed as death in the woods cast in light turned out to be the best of friends
I came out of the woods to understand
And to find that this love that I pledged eternally was as changing and unstable as the sand.
So fall with me, and hold tight to my hand
Your lips teach much more than my mind can understand
Through the bush and through the briar through the flood and through the fire
So fall with me, and hold tight to my hand
Your lips teach much more than my mind can understand
So fall with me, and hold tight to my hand
Your lips teach much more than my mind can understand
I took a sip of Robin’s cup and suddenly your love’s enough
Sanctify Me
Sanctify me I’m in love today
Come with me and I will share with you my name
Blessed by God, who draws us near
He’s been using both your lips each day in teaching me to hear
Marry me for love and for life
Molded by the potter’s hands to be husband and wife
I know your love is just a taste
Of the one who rains the heavens down and showers us in grace
Take my hand and we’ll find our way
And forget all of our shame in relearning how to play
Be my bride, till we grow old
And we’ll live each day reflecting all those stories we’ve been told
And I know your love is just a taste
Of the one who rains the heavens down and showers us in grace
Sanctify me, I’m in love today
Come with me, and I will share with you my name
The Orchard
21 years in a sheepskin suit
I clean it each day but the real still shines through
Would I hide in it each day if I’d nothing left to lose
stumble round the earth, sing this verse and hum the tune that
I don’t know where I’m going
I don’t know where I’m going
What if I don’t make it
What if no one knows my name
Lay my feelings out in song, and no one feels the same
*will you connect with me*, sing back to me
let me know you know
that like me you’re always searching and you never seem to grow
and we’ll sing
we don’t know where we’re going
we don’t know where we’re going
Don’t you know I love you
Don’t you know I care
I vow to walk beside you
The doubts you own, I share.
I’ve read it all before in a book with just one rule
love the king, love the cripple, love the whore, love the fool
and if you do IT!….. then you’ll be free
you’ll put down your politics and finally know relief
you’ll say I know where I’m going
I know where I’m going
Instead I want the power of the lion
and the love of the lamb
I want to be upon the screen, a put-on life of pretend friends
Why must I feel it as my birthright, a rope round my neck clings
pull my body to the butchers, I’m the beast I’m not the king
They’ll sing
oh oh take me where he’s going
and I’ll sing, oh oh oh, I didn’t know what I was hoping for.
We’ll turn the earth in this place
Clear the rocks from the space
Dig the dirt sink the spade
Tend the seeds day to day
As the roots dig down deep
The garden fills with the trees
We’ll prune the old for new leaves
Grow the orchard you need
Backs break, hands shake
Our legs ache under the weight
Cut back weeds, wind or rain
You’ll know we’ve come to say
We won’t go
We won’t go
We won’t leave this wasted world
till our weary work is whole
The Zoo
My heart is skipping like a stone over silent waters
Each time I try to pull you close I seem to push you farther
Screaming can you hear me, but no sound escapes my mouth
Four walls they’re made of glass, I can’t escape but I can look through
Too slow to realize I’m not the human I am the zoo,
Come one, come all.
And you’ll find at the back of my mind
Is a voice saying son if they love you they’re blind
If you stay in your cage and let nobody through,
you’ll never feel pain, you’ll have no one to lose
We’ll live out each day in our box of perfection,
The numbness will keep you from feeling rejection
oh I am all that there is
I am the cut, and I am the kiss.
Darling girl I swear it’s true
I try to keep my vows to you
but selflessness has never been my virtue
You paid your dues we’ve had our laughs
if you said that you take it back
I swear I’d never think to blame you
The scars across my side don’t show
It’s love I want it’s pride I know
The more I learn the less I seem to grow
Oh… I see you
Can’t seem to say it but I hope you know I need you
Lie die die
When you come back home you know I’ll greet you
I hope you know I’ll always reach you
My mind is skipping like a stone over silent waters
Each time I try to pull you close I seem to push you farther
Screaming can you hear me, but no sound escapes my mouth
Victorious Laughter
I’ve been writing songs under your name before I knew
And never understood a word until the day I met you
Now I know I’m here I’m home
I’ve come back from this bourbon road
It lead me to believe what I now plainly see
That you were made to journey with me
I’ve had all these worries that I thought I’d keep inside
But I met joy come to destroy that guilt, that shame and that pride
Now I know I cannot tell how you can love me so well
It led me to believe what I now plainly see
That you were made to journey with me
I laid out in the rain to see if God would set me free
He sent you in a lighting storm
I know he struck you with me
It’s by rage that I’ve been fueled
That won’t bring you peace you fool
Let go to be free and prove what I can see
That you were made to journey with me
Nevermind the people’s wrath
We’ll find our way stray from our path
But I’ve no need to look back now I hold you
And do I even ask her if we just forget our past or
Did that pain just lead us to our victorious laughter
Down from the darkest road in that golden and flickering light
But with you I have found a home and the world is pure and bright
Just to know that you’re somehow with me in the dark though I can not see
I know that i’m as I should, I’m the way I was meant to be
Now I know I’ve been set free to face the cold the wind and the sea
The love that came and found me, and prove what I can see
That you were made to journey with me.
Will I Wake
Am I at war, am I asleep
Oblivious to winter’s sting
And will I wake to bursting spring
To fight, sleep, eat, repeat
And I’ve been crying to you
I have felt the human curse
Preaching peace that leaves us first
And all our dreams are drenched in thirst
The World has left my heart coerced
And I’ve been crying to you
I was crying, then I woke
To find what God in heaven spoke
He said, “You were good but now you’re broke,
You were good but now you’re broke.”
Worth It
I should be mad at all the stuff I’ve been put through
I should be mad at all the people that I always thought I knew
I should be mad at all the lessons that I was learning when I grew
But I can’t be mad now that I have met you
No I can’t be mad now that I have met you
So push me out in a small boat way out to sea
So I can look back at those painful things that have happened to me
Because they’re worth it
They’re worth it
they’re worth it
They’re worth it
My sister said are you still trying to escape
From all your bitterness and your hatred
And all your damning rage
Don’t let it seep into your bones
Don’t lock yourself in your own cage
Instead let it go, it’s your heart that’s really sane
Let it go, it’s your heart that’s really sane.
So push me out in a small boat way out to sea
So I can look back at those silly things that have happened to me
Because they’re worth it
They’re worth it
they’re worth it
They’re worth it
So push me out in a small boat way out to sea
So I can look back at those silly things that have happened to me
Because their worth it
I should be mad at all the stuff I’ve been put through
I should be mad at all the people that I always knew I knew
I should be mad at all the lessons that I was learning when I grew
But I can’t be mad now that I have met you
Because you’re worth it
You’re worth it
You’re worth it
You’re worth it
Pretty Papers
When we met, I dazzled and amazed you
Showing off at every chance I got
Curling fingers open swiftly to contain me,
But before you knew it, all of me was lost
Tossing lovers into certain frenzy,
As the leaves drip down into the earth
Causing chaos on the ocean when you need me,
I’ll be here when all you do is hurt
Swirling up to meet the heavens fondly
Smoothing out those footprints in the sand
I will thrust you into danger and deception
But truly dear I am your only friend
Bursting open all your expectations
Causing bedlam everywhere I go
Blame it on my recklessness or my redemption
Oh my love, my weeds were bound to show
Weaving past the seasons in a heartbeat
Pausing quick to graze you on the cheek
Wrecking all your (my) pretty papers on your (my) desk, dear
I know that you hate it when I’m weak
Whistling in to all those tiny tree holes
Forcing all the chimes to dance with joy
I’ll make for certain to find you when you’re sleeping
And remind you of those times we had before
Rustling up all your darkest worries
I will pry and poke and prod ‘til dawn
Just to show me to that last forbidden window
I promise that I’ll catch you when you jump